I've been trying
To put some sense
To this otherwise
Utterly delusional state.
I've been trying
To evade
This frenzy
I made myself.
I've been trying
Too hard
I guess
To no avail.
I've been trying
To explain myself
To you, to me
To my rational self.
I've been trying
To place words
When otherwise
Incoherent they may seem.
I've been trying
To place myself
In a numb state
To be unfeeling.
I've been trying.
But you've been trying too.
To put me in this maze
To put me in this daze.
You've been trying.
To put words
Where no words
Could actually explain.
You've been trying.
To put sense
When there seems
That sense is but a word.
You've been trying
To explain
To me, to yourself
I hope.
You've been trying.
And yet as we both try,
Neither gets to
Where we wish we were.
I want to stop trying.
Only if you stop trying too.
Only when I can stop myself.
Only when we could stop.
