I Plummet

I have written several blogs about this overrated topic. All of them all too corny but I’m pretty sure this one will beat it. Yes, I am pre-empting my blog but what the heck, I just had to warn my readers that this is going to be a very corny blog. One I never thought I would make but just because I am bored and I would want to do something else other than compute numbers, might as well write this. Ok, I am blabbering. Trying to prolong your agony. I’m sorry. No intentions really. Just writing.  ;p

A year ago, I would not have imagined where I am today. Well, maybe, I wish I was where I am right now. Or I may say, I have thought of this place but never in my thoughts did I consider it to happen.

Today, I find myself plummeting. No, make it plummeted. No, make it plummeting still. Or no, plummeted.

I have always blogged about this confusing state I claimed to be in. I always said I never really understood anything that was happening. I never understood why I had a lot of questions, why I need some answering, why I always felt the urge to talk. And those questions remain. But thankfully, I got one answered. It wasn’t unrequited.

You may ask me, did I plummet long before? I say no. You will argue, for sure. And I will argue. Because I do not think I did nor I was or whatever. I just had questions. And with the questions came apprehensions.  With the apprehensions came fear and then the rest is history. 

Never had I the courage to talk nor did he. The only thing we had nearest to talking was text messages. How lame. Yes, very lame. At least we told each other. But not directly still.

And we came to a funny chance. And we tried it out.So now, I can say, I plummet. (plummeted, plummeting still)

Maybe I was in denial but I will argue. Because really, if I plummeted, then maybe I should not have felt anything for anyone else, right? Or am I just denying again?

It doesn’t matter now really. What matters is today and today I will say I plummet, plummeted, plummeting still.

I know there are no guarantees, this is all a leap of faith but I am willing to take a chance just this once.

So now, I plummet.