I am Alone

I close my eyes. Holding in the tears that I would want to shed. But I do not want to cry. To cry would mean my defeat again in this battle. To cry would mean that I succumb to loneliness that have become my second skin.

I am alone.

But I am not alone.

I wish I am not. I wish I am not wishing. I wish I am not imagining.

I am alone. Alone in this battlefield. And I choose to be.

I am alone. Almost forlorn. But I am not alone.

I kneel down and pray. Yes, I am not alone. I have him watching over me.

At least in Him, I am assured He will not reject me. He will not disappoint. He may make me frustrated because I wont get what I would want but I know it is for the better. It is for the better, I convince myself.

I am alone.

Positive and Happy vibes, be my company.