I just wont let you

I can't let you hurt me.
I refuse to.
I didn't take the plunge.
Even when I thought I would.
Even when I knew I could.
Even when I thought I should.

Because my dear,
You wouldn't.
Because my dear,
You don't care.
Because my dear,
You just won't.

I miss you, dearly.
This I know.
 I miss you, every time.
This I know.

But do you miss me?
Dearly?
But do you miss me?
Every time?

I doubt.
I doubt like I doubt that I'll see the stars
When it is raining.

I doubt.
I doubt like I doubt that the sun will shine
When it's night.

And maybe that hurts me more,
Doubting.
And maybe I can handle it more,
Falling.

I wish I didn't have to doubt.
I wish I just fall.