Darkness

I'm scared
Of the dark
Of ghosts
Of past mistakes

The dark now engulfs me
And I revel in it
I let it take me in

I hide in the dark
So I can be free
Free to cry

I hide in the dark
So I can be alone
So no one can judge

But I'm afraid where I am
Although it gives me solace
It gives me desolation.

I am in this irony
This paradox I made
This nothingness

I try and scramble
To get out
To be free yet unfree.

I am forlorn.
I am alone.
I am lonely.